| | Ah good old lj. Alot has changed since my previous postings. I have become more mentally aware of the world around me. Exciting times the past years have been. reminiscing about it all, i draw memories of friends, companions, lovers. All of which have impacted my life, each respectively throwing new variables into my already chaotic life, allowing me to adapt to different scenarios, and grow stronger emotionally. I don't believe i know anyone with a lj anymore... This livejournal is my last tie to who i was before, reading it, i have noticed significant changes in my overall mindset. I'll try to rant a little more often, if there is anyone out there that still reads these things. kudos.
I've loved and lost several times, but she is so hard to forget.
-----I regret Nothing | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| | Currently in the wonderful world of Alex...Hippies have been curing me, and punk rockers plague my dreams. Oh yeah and that whole house arrest thing, yeah that sucks. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 10:33 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_boy/sad.gif) Worse then phisical pain, man |
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| | Pure insanity my friends. And not the kind thats not taken litarally. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 10:24 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_boy/thirsty.gif) Melencholy Happiness? |
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| At least one thing good has come out of the drug induced sixties. It taught a whole generation of American teenagers the metric system.
Hey kids its midless crazy happy time....
Personally, I believe a rocking hammock, a good cigar, and a tall gin-and-tonic is the way to save the planet.
Giving money and power to government is like giving whiskey and car keys to teenage boys.
A little government and a little luck are necessary in life, but only a fool trusts either of them.
Even though sometimes you just swing blindly and hope you hit that damn piniatta its always a good idea to write about it first.'
The Democrats are the party that says government will make you smarter, taller, richer, and remove the crabgrass on your lawn. The Republicans are the party that says government doesn't work and then they get elected and prove it.
Y'know i think i'll just kick back and listen to some fucking bluegrass..... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Sometimes... You can cry until there is nothing wet in you. You can scream and curse to where your throat rebels and ruptures. You can pray, all you want, to whatever god you think will listen. And still...it makes no difference. It goes on with no sign as to when it might release you. And you know that if it ever did relent... It would not be because it cared.
An extreme amount of free time + ciggaretes = An extreme amount of free time, plus ciggaretes. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Currently ladies and gentlemen i'm drunk off my ass (typing like a champ!)
I'm all alone and i'm fucking sick of it, its four twenty for christ sakes. I want a chance to be passionate but i cant leave my FUCKING HOUSE. Its kind of ironic isnt it? in more ways than one. But there is no use in going over the irony of things and thus pointing out flaws in judgement, following by a great deal of remorse. Witch helps no one, but one cant stop the stinging pain in the back of your head telling you not to forget "that one time" I'm fucking sick of it, sick of trying, sick of even thinking. And most of all sick of being sober. (Time to use a catchy phrase from the early 70's) I have become comfortably numb. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Its funny because fate always seems to bring to me a sort of repetetiviness. The same things happen but all i can do is just stand there and let them happen the same way they have done so many times before. Unable to do anything about it i turn to the state of mind that i'm most accostomed to, The thought process thats not entirly sane, i know this but all i can do is watch myself fall deeper and deeper into the rabbit hole. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I I guess its always my fate to never reach true happiness....Its nights like this that bring up the past in my mind, It makes me realize that i have a bleak future shrouded in misfortune. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | The doors of perception in my mind have once again been torn open. I crave the feeling. knowing that i cant get out of my house to occupy my mind. I'm becoming to slowly realize things that i havent before. Things of equal or even greater importance. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Light My Fire, The Doors | | Time: | 09:22 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_boy/sleepy.gif) tired |
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| I havent updated this thing in forevvvvver.....
lately i have been in a daze of sorts. The downward spiral i started a while ago has escaladed into the way i live my life. Its really effecting my state of mind. It seems that when i'm around people i sustain a happy mood but when i'm by myself and all i have is my thoughts to keep me company, i get brought down to emo kid leval.
I think on the inside i might be a emo kid.
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In other more exciting news, i got hijacked today by mary, and we went on a wacky adventure, or something of the sort. it was fun | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | White Rabbit/Somebody to love, Jefferson Airplane kicks ass. | | Time: | 10:37 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_boy/happy.gif) good |
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| | HAHAHAHAHA.......stop thinking with your minds. The essence of life does not thrive in thoughts. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Blue Oyster Cult | | Time: | 10:18 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_boy/okay.gif) Alive |
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| My heart is black and my lips are cold, city's on flame with rock and roll.
Save Me. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| Hey, sorry i havent updated this in quite some time. Just been kinda busy, havent done alot of stuff lately...
call and wake me from my dream world.....please | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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